Where

I'm currently finding the process of situating my physical practice within my contextual arena trialing. There is an abhorrent lack of congeniality between where I have situated my project and where I am making most progress practically. I feel very much like I have indulged too much time in half baked ideas without sitting down and considering their implications. In a shorter project I would not have such a luxury of time, so therefore the physical spoils of my process would inherently bear direct ramifications to the project, however recently I find myself dedicating time to pursuits 'just because' which may all be fine for my process, but I am just worried now that I am finding it all too difficult to join the 'why' with the 'how'.

Its not that I'm finding it difficult to back up my contextual side, far from it, I have picked up several texts simply from curiosity, only to find in my horror / delight, that the topic of living within a nostalgic past has already been extensively discussed. It offers me plenty of sumptuous quotes to back up my thesis, but I am unsure of where it all leaves me. These quotes fire the engine of progress, but potentially this literary inertia will blind me from engaging with the quiet truths of my work. Each new philosopher enlisted to my already bolstered chorus adds yet another voice to the composition, which indeed results in a richer ensemble, but ultimately it becomes harder for the conductor; struggling to identify who is singing out of key.

And with such a confusion in one area, it becomes more tricky when trying to utilize this contextual background, in enabling my project to move forward. I went home for the weekend last week to collect resources and materials for inspiration, and this was indeed very rewarding, however now I am not entirely sure where to go. To persevere working with materials that I have collected, unsure as to whether they will be of use, or to nail down what exactly my project is about. But I think given the looming contextual report deadline, I don't think I'm in all too bad an area. I feel I need to clearly pinpoint all three aspects to my project. I think I'm just at the point now in the tunnel where it is too far to turn back, and no light can be seen at the other end. I'm just crossing my fingers that its a long tunnel rather than an invisible dead end.